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look who it is!! [Feb. 7th, 2007|02:51 pm]
forgive me, not
[mood |highhigh]
[music |velvet underground]

Hey everyone! Levi has returned. Its been about 3 years eh? maybe a little less. Life has been up down left right and everywhere inbetween, from drug addictions to crazy cow pattie adventures to work to relationships to kids to jail and losing my mind. Luckily i got it back. Im doin ok now. livin on 1960, but in july im movin closer to i 10. far away from the shitty place and shitty people of the woodlands. sorry if your offended, and if you're offended then you should be. i put a link in my myspace for this so hopefully more of you will read my junk. til next time. peace love and apple sauce.
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(no subject) [Nov. 12th, 2004|12:00 pm]
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[mood |hopefulhopeful]
[music |take action! cd vol. 4]

i know i havent written in a while but its because i dont have a computer. lifes been going alright lately and i like how im living. i found God and ive been doing better since. i also met a girl. i actually knew her from a while ago but oh well. she is still awsome and makes me feel good. im takin it slow.. real slow this time. so that i dont screw it up. band thing is iffy, but im working on it. i have a job, i work at culver's and im doin good. i get 7 bucks an hour which is sadly the most ive been payed by anyone. if anyone wants to get a hold of me just call the cell phone cuz i have one of thiose now too and im always with it. ill see you around and god bless you.
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wow [Sep. 15th, 2004|01:58 am]
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[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |taking back sunday - ..uh...#5 on the new one? lol]

im not home and im happy im at my lovers house oh yes anyways im going bye bye
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(no subject) [Sep. 12th, 2004|10:14 pm]
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[mood |scaredscared]
[music |hawthorne heights]

today was a big crazy rollercoaster. this weekend has been actually. ive realized who is here for me always and who isnt. i realized how people tend to use me for rides or other things. cam is my best friend. and i will always be here for him, becasue he is always here for me. david is alwasy here too. meghan and sean are here unless i make meghan mad, which isnt what real friends do. so i dont even know whats going on in there heads most the time. maybe they just feel sorry for me or just sympathize for me when im in trouble. the fact that meghan didnt even want to come see me when i was in the hospital really shocked me. and it hurt me as well. all the times she has said she was here for me and then she goes off and doesnt even want to see how im doing. is that a friend? what do you think? cuz im out of things to think. im really trippin out about alot of things right now and i mean right now as in the period of my life not as in this second. if im mean to any of you. dont take it personally. its just what im going through. ok. well. im out. bye
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(no subject) [Sep. 11th, 2004|04:17 am]
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[mood |busybusy]
[music |underoath]

hvaent updated ina while. my bday was like 3 days ago. i turned 19. it wwas fun. adrienne, kevin, caleb, kenny,cam, mae, and chad all came over for pizza. hells yes for pizza. today was alright. i got informed and yelled at by my dayd that he is sellin the house so i have to like find moneya nd get an apartment with dylan b4 christmas is here. i got a gf. jess. shes hot. and perfect. wahoo. i was int he hospital for a few days cuz of britty, but i think im over her now for good. today i hung out with kevin cam seana nd meghan. meghan got mad at me again for some reason. i didnt even smoke and she was tellins ean i was and she told me to stop bein a dick so i told her to leave. im kinda sick. i wish meghan would grow out of this stage where she ets mad at me for everythign in the whole wide world. she stormed off. i pawned my shitty guitar but only got 35 bucks for it. oh well, i got 35 more bucks towards the apartment. cam was upset that i couldnt take him to get more bud. i was just feelin sick. i hope he isnt upset for too long. stephanie still like shim so ill tell him tomorow. i hung out with her and the OR drill team tonigth at ihop. her friends think im hot. wahoo. anyways. OR lost whcih wasnt a surprise to me since the football team blows. football blows perio. got a new band, with kevin, joel, sean cam and i. i saw jess tongiht. shes beautiful and her daughter is so pretty. shes awsome. work is goin good. anyways, no pawn shop woudl take a fuckin super nintendo. i was mad. oh well. GARAGE SEELL AT MY HOUSE TOMOROW FROM 10 - 2 if anyone wants my ol clothes, music, radio, stuffed animals, etc. im out. gotta get up at 8 and its like 4:30 . peace out and meghan calm down. its all ok. k bye! i <3 jess
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2004|11:55 am]
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[mood |numbnumb]
[music |its obvious isnt it?]

Go on just say it,
You need me like a bad habit,
One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone.
Go on just say it (Are you afraid to),
You need me like a bad habit (Say what you want to, tell me you want to),
One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone. (Are you afraid to say what you want to, tell me you want to).

I hold my tongue use it to assess,
The damage from way back when it mattered,
But nothing seems important anymore,
We’re just protecting ourselves from our self,
And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back…

Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to.
Are you ashamed to say what you want to tell me you want to.
(Come on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Come on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to.
(Come on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Come on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to.

I’m making the difference,
It just seems pointless,
With all the obvious lines all out of focus.
Why can’t you just be happy,
Why can’t you just be happy.
And I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back down),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back down (I don’t think I’ll ever come back…),
I don’t think I’ll ever come back...

(Just come back, just come back...)
Go on just say it, (just come back...)
Come on just say it, (just come back...)
Well I’ll just say it, (just come back...)
I’ll just say it, (just come back...)
I need you defenseless, dependent and alone.
(Just come back, just come back, just come back...)
She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Can't you live without the attention?
Can't you live without the attention?
(Just come back, just come back, just come back...)
She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Can't you live without the attention?
Can't you live without the attention?

She says live up to your first impression (Come on, just say it),
Well my best side was your worst invention (Come on, just say it),
Why cant you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live without the attention (alone).
She says live up to your first impression (I just say it),
Well my best side was your worst invention (I just say it),
Why cant you live without the attention (I need you defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live without the attention (Alone),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why cant you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live…without…live…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live (Defenseless, dependent),
Why can’t you live…without…live…without (Defenseless, dependent, defenseless, dependent).
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my feelings wrote in ryhme, and it came out exact [Sep. 1st, 2004|12:22 am]
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[music |straylight run]

i never thought
that someone like you
could change my whole life
and my point of view
on how the world looked
or the way that i felt
you kissed me just once
and i was under your spell
far from just dreaming
i fell asleep in your arms
i woke up next to you
and that's where i belong

the rain never hits
a drop on you
when you're dancin outside
my dreams have come true
it doesnt seem to fit in with
the way my life's supposed to be
something in the way you smile
something that makes me happy
suttle words were said
and i dropped to the floor
i never want an end to this
no i couldnt ask for more
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2004|04:53 am]
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[mood |lonelylonely]
[music |atreyu]

im kinda gettin tired of the same old shit that keeps going on day in and day out. i made a few new friends. im still single. i work alot, and im staying the night at my friend meghans house tonight with sean. i am kinda tired. i want someone to come along and be the perfect match for me, and i want it to be soon, but i guess ill have to wait. i have dial up now and it sucks. i have to work today at 11 and its 5am right now. sean and meghan fell asleep really fast. wish i could do that shit. im going, im lonely and i wish i had someone to call my own. i guess ill just have to dream about her, whoever she is, until she comes. goodnight and sweet dreams... i hope mine come true soon.
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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2004|12:22 am]
forgive me, not
[music |mest]

What is your name?: levi
Are you named after anyone?: my great grandpa
What's your screename?: shecamescreaming
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Zoey or Skylie
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: no one
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: levy, leve, livi
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: no
Basics
Your gender:: male
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: have been
If not, do you want to be?: n/a
Birthdate:: september 8, 1985
Your age:: 18
Age you act:: 13
Age you wish you were:: 22/15
Your height:: 5'4
Eye color:: brown
Happy with it?: yes
Hair color:: different
Happy with it?: want it black
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: right
Your living arrangement:: me and dad
Your family:: 5?
Have any pets?: yes
Whats your job?: cooking at culver's and rockin out in The Morning After
Piercings?: 5/8's in my ears and lip
Tattoos?: 4
Obsessions?: music and the computer
Addictions?: music and computer
Do you speak another language?: sort of
Have a favorite quote?: dont settle for second best
Do you have a webpage?: yes
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: maybe
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
Do you have any secrets?: no
Do you hate yourself?: no
Do you like your handwriting?: yes
Do you have any bad habits?: yes
What is the compliment you get from most people?: ur ears are awsome/ you're a sweetheart
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: The Morning After
What's your biggest fear?: losing all hope
Can you sing?: yes
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
Are you a loner?: sometimes
What are your #1 priorities in life?: music and friends
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: definately
Are you a daredevil?: kinda?
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: that iom not good enough for the girl i want
Are you passive or agressive?: depends
Do you have a journal?: duh...
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: music, natural girls..i.e. no make up, naturally pretty
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: idk
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: no
Do you think life has been good so far?: yes
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: too many to count
What do you like the most about your body?: my fingers
And least?: my hairline
Do you think you are good looking?: i dont...they do ::points to girls::
Are you confident?: for the most part
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i dont know
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes
Do You...
Smoke?: yes
Do drugs?: nope
Read the newspaper?: yes
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: yes
Talk to strangers who IM you?: yes
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes
Take walks in the rain?: yes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: sometimes
Drive?: yes
Like to drive fast?: yes
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: yes
Hurt yourself?: yes
Been out of the country?: i want to
Eaten something that made other people sick?: duh
Been in love?: yes
Done drugs?: yes
Gone skinny dipping?: in the bathtub muahahah
Had a medical emergency?: yes
Had surgery?: yes
Ran away from home?: no
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?: yes
Been picked on?: yes
Been on stage?: yes
Slept outdoors?: yes
Thought about suicide?: yes
Pulled an all nighter?: yes
If yes, what is your record?: 3 days
Gone one day without food?: yes
Talked on the phone all night?: yes
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yes
Slept all day?: almost
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: yes
Had sex with a stranger?: yes
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: yes
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:yes
On purpose?: :( yes
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: no
Stolen anything?: yes
Been on radio/tv?: no
Been in a mosh-pit?: yes
Had a nervous breakdown?: no
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes
Miracles?: yes
Astrology?: yes
Magic?: no
God?: yes
Satan?: yes
Santa?: yes
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: yes
Love at first sight?: yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: yes
Easter bunny?: yes
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: yes
Do you wish on stars?: yes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: i dont know what the trditional view is
Do you think God has a gender?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: dont know what that is
Where do you think we go when we die?: either heaven or hell
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
Who is your best friend?: meghan, david and sean
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: mom
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: never settle for second best
Your favourite inside joke?: ?
Thing you're picked on most about?: memory and shortness
Who's your longest known friend?: mom
Newest?: sean
Shyest?: stevi
Funniest?: david or kevin but definately CAM MOLINET
Sweetest?: none
Closest?: david, stevi, and cam
Weirdest?: cam
Smartest?: adri
Ditziest?: caroline
Friends you miss being close to the most?: david and cam
Last person you talked to online?: kevin, im talking to him right now
Who do you talk to most online?: cam / kevin / adri
Who are you on the phone with most?: emmy
Who do you trust most?: david and cam
Who listens to your problems?: meghan
Who do you fight most with?: meghan
Who's the nicest?: cam
Who's the most outgoing?: cam
Who's the best singer?: cam
Who's on your shit-list?: meh
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yes stephanie garlinger
Who's your second family?: seans house
Do you always feel understood?: no
Who's the loudest friend?: cam
Do you trust others easily?: no
Who's house were you last at?: kevins
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: mom
Do your friends know you?: some of them
Friend that lives farthest away:: nicole in florida
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
What do you find romantic?: stars
Turn-on?: biting
Turn-off?: bad breathe, hair
First kiss?: soft and long and full of feeling
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: akward
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: most of the time
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: appearently lol
What is best about the opposite sex?: personality
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: baggage
What's the last present someone gave you?: i cant remember
Are you in love?: no
Do you consider your significant other hot?: i dont have one
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: no one
You wanted to kill?: a few people, but death should come in time not forced
That you laughed at?: kevin
That laughed at you?: cam
That turned you on?: stephanie at work, her butt is amazing and i had trouble hiding that i was turned on :-/
You went shopping with?: myself
That broke your heart?: stephanie vandenberghe a year ago [last gf i had]
To disappoint you?: david, stop being a man whore
To ask you out?: no one
To make you cry?: memories of yesterday [ let it all just slip away] - mest
To brighten up your day?: cam
That you thought about?: stephanie v. and g.
You saw a movie with?: cant remember
You talked to on the phone?: dad
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: kevin/adri
You saw?: kevin / sadie my dog
You lost?: cant remember
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no
Will it be with your significant other?: no
Or some random person?: shut the hell up about it
What are you wearing right now?: ramones shirt boxers and a hard on :-)
Body part you're touching right now:: ::ahem:: *whistles*
What are you worried about right now?: dylan
What book are you reading?: i dont read books
What's on your mousepad?: the mouse :-D
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: horny, loss of love, depressed, lonely, alone
Are you bored?: tired more
Are you tired?: haha yes why didnt i see this before
Are you talking to anyone online?: yeas kevin and adri
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: content
Are you listening to music?: the radio in my head is always on, and its always playing our favorite song
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2004|09:59 am]
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yay! im not sick today, and my air conditioning in the house is awsome. its so cold. it feels like winter. teehee. i cant wait until winter comes. i have a whole house to clean. dangit. k bye
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